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Thanks
I give thanks
Not only for
What I have
But also for
What I will
Soon come
To find.

I give thanks
For trials
And tribulations
That have to
Be overcome.

I give thanks
For the test
That must
Be passed.

I give thanks
For happiness
And pain.
No matter the
Emotion - I
Give thanks
Just the same.

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Wednesday, February 08, 2006

changed my blogskin...yay...dotz...........

itz a nice all black and white. sort of reflects my life now? or is it pure coincidence

funny how it says: "shout out to God with a voice of triumph...we lift your name up..."

i dont feel very triumphful (if there's such a word)...it's really been so draining, the past one month...start of skl, chinese new year, tests, lessons, homework, meetings, youth, i realli tot i could take it all, i guess i overestimated myself. i like to think of myself as happy, heck care, live life to the fullest kind, but i guess i realli am the opposite of that now. and it's realli dreadful...i hate the life im leading now. it feels so day in day out, routine and boring. it's so draining that everyday the minute u wake up u think of the test for the day and the minute u finish the test u start thinking of the next one or the next piece of overdue homework. then there's the extracurricular stuff, like council and drama that drains u even further. it's a life that's so without God and so dry and dusty...haiz...

funny why im pouring all these out on my blog, dont realli care, dont realli give a damn.

the last post i made was to study all out, guess i failed in that one. i suppose im realli stressed out now...eating more than usual. haha. gonna grow fat...fatter...tml i have physics test. it's a drain. im giving up on it...i tot i could handle everything but i guess im buckling now...can i hold on for much longer? i dunno, i realli dunno. i dont want to sink into some kind of rut where i cant get out and the worst thing is tat i noe tat im sinking but dont realli wanto get out of it...its a dilemma and irony and i realli cant make anything out of it...

heck about the physics test...waves and electromagnetic spectrum can go to hell for all i care...

dont worry abt me. no need to leave encouraging messages on the tagboard. im still pretty much in control of my life. its probably just a phase and i'll get out of it...just a passing shower in an otherwise bright and sunny day, a blip in a clear radar screen. i dont believe i cant get out of this rut. im stronger than i think...i think...?

mebbe its because i havent been seeking God and putting Him first, mebbe itz because ive let my relationship with Him grow cold and stale...i noe...sorry Lord...i wanto get back on the right track, to where i should be..not in this rut...im getting out! oh yeah!

but let me wallow in this self-pity first, but i'll soon get the better of it, im getting back to my old self...

i noe, im weird...

forever God is faithful,

forever God is kind,

forever God is with us,

forever and ever.

10:26 pm