but the good thing is after O levels, we stop dying, and we suddenly feel rejuvenated and full of life, we are resurrected. then, when the term starts, we start dying again...it's a vicious cycle we can never break out of.

today another part of my school life died. CDS. technically i no longer belong to CD, TECHNICALLY. but i guess, as they always say, sheng shi CD de ren, si shi CD de gui. sounds extreme i know...today as the sec fours turned our back on the PAS for the final time as CDS members, im sure we all felt a tinge of sadness, though it's nothing to cry over. it's without a doubt that we will all miss AHSCDS and no doubt that it will be one of the best memories of my life, something that i will take and carry with me throughout my life, till old age, to heaven, to eternity? maybe?

cds is amazing. i MEAN amazing. ive been in two ccas so i can compare. today, as our last CCA, we didnt have to do much. we watched the sec ones huibao and the sec threes founders day ju. then there was jian tao. a relatively relaxing CCA. the sec ones were seriously good. SERIOUSLY. for sec ones, they were amazing. and i hope that if they keep improving and get serious about their work and improve on their attitude, i dare say they will qing chu yu lan, er sheng yu lan, even my batch. im really looking forward to what this batch can do and will do, though we should all take care not to hype things up. too bad there were no xiao yous here today to watch, or they will all agree with me that this batch is really something amazing. many batches begin at level one, and slowly improve. i believe this batch is already at level three. while there are some weaker ones, i think that they all have immense potential.

really happy to watch the sec ones perform.

sec threes turn to perform. overall i didnt see anything wrong with the ju, but i didnt see anything very good either. i cant really spot problems in plays, i realised. in jian taos, i dont really say much constructive stuff. maybe it's because i have lower expectations of others. as in, while i expect them to do well, i dont expect them to be exceptional. when the school song was played for that ju, i felt a tinge of pride for AHS. im not ashamed to say this on my blog, but i really love AHS, and i'll miss this school im sure, no matter which JC i go to. well, founders day is coming soon, but the sec threes still have time to spruce up the performance and tie up some loose ends. jiayou guys. if u all need help, come and find me or any of the seniors. most of us will be more than willing to help if u all ask.

jian tao was quite emotional, something that shouldnt be discussed on this blog. but after this episode, i hope we will all improve together, because im sure we will.

enough of that, after CCA, sec fours went to take pictures. we are a bunch of rather zi lian ppl who love the camera. we took at PAS and all saints, to relive our memories of when we were young. damn, i really miss those times. after that, we went to 85 for dinner and we had a good time, eating and talking. i really hope that we will have something like this in the future, even after we have parted ways and gone on our own different paths. we were there from 7-9. i guess nobody really wanted to leave, if not for parents, im sure we would still be there talking now. there's just so much to talk about. after all, with four years of experiences, 3 batches of juniors, 2 xiang yings and xiaoneis each and 1 big mouth, how can you run out of topics to talk about?

im really gonna miss my batch very much. these are the best bunch of people i've met. they're really a second family. a home away from home. just as many seniors before us have said.

at the end of the day, fate and the education system forces us to part ways. four years of building friendships and bonds, now cruelly forced apart by society and different dreams and ambitions. hopefully, the bond remains.

dont want to handover to the juniors. partly because i'll still be a little bit worried, partly because handing over will mark the end of CDS membership, and entry into the alumni association.

four years fly by like the blink of an eye. suddenly after four years of involvement in ahs, it now feels as if i have never been in ahs. time is a blur. it never stops, nor should it stop. we want time to last forever, but we can never live in a particular time and place forever. it's just against human nature. we look forward to the future, but we must never forget the past. hold on to the memories, good and bad. hold on to the friendships, hold on to the tears, the laughs, the fears, the pains, the cheers...because they form our character. our experiences determine who we are. nurture over nature. our experiences mould us and make us human. sentiments and emotions are the core of the human soul and memories and experiences are the building blocks.

time and tide wait for no man

i finally realise the meaning of that cliché.