this is it. the day has come. in less than 24 hours, i would have graduated from ahs. not that im happy or anything. most of the time, graduation seems like a happy event. like it's some sort of relief, like it's the light at the end of the tunnel, like it's the reward for surviving hell.
i seriously don't understand how come people can be so happy about graduating, unless you either really hate the school or you are really optimistic about the future. i am neither, therefore, i dread graduation.
i can't really fathom the fact that in less than 24hours time i will become an alumni. it's almost insulting to be called an alumni. i never did like alumni, some of them gave me a really bad impression. i guess i will resolve to be an alumni who is nice to juniors and not tell them about how much better it was 'in my time'. it will be really weird that next time when i step into ahs i will no longer have a classroom or a locker to my name, or a council room where i can rightly go in and leave things there like it's my room or something.
i still remember the first day of orientation! it was like just yesterday. time flies. i know, it's cliche and everything, but it really does, and nothing, and i mean, nothing, you can do to stop it from flying away. four years seems like a long, looong time. but now looking back, it doesn't really seem that long. it was more of a blink of an eye, a flash in a pan. all of a sudden, i am now one of the thousands who have walked in and out of the school gates.
i really love the school. it's quite weird to admit, but i'm sure no matter how much we profess to hate ahs, we still do have a soft spot for this school after all. i am positive that even if i search the whole globe, i still may not find any place like this. nevertheless, i guess it's time to move on. there's no progress unless you move on. it's time to go on to greater things. to a new place, where i can let loose and do something crazy again. haha.
boy, the past four years have been chock full with memories. i have to try really hard not to forget. yet it seems like every day, the memories are slowly fading away, becoming more vague as time passes and installs new memories into your head.
i'll miss the canteen, the pac, talking to teachers who are so nice and approachable, ccas on fridays, expressions, heck, even morning assembly. i'll miss the talk cock sessions in class, the camps where you didnt sleep all night and the next morning you play so many games and exhaust yourself, only to repeat the process the next day. i'll miss the meetings on saturday mornings, i'll even miss the lessons in class, the racial harmony fairs that are just so lame, i'll miss the watercooler, the toilet (for a reason i do not know), the cleaners, but above all, i'll miss my friends.
they just HAVE to separate good friends. that's whats so cruel about the real world. that's why we all need heaven, where we can have an eternity to catch up. i just cross my fingers and pray that we'll just remain friends forever.
bye bye ahs. I'll miss you lots!
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