today i went to my new class. 08S03R. quite a fun bunch of ppl, although i was like wary at first. time is still required for me to get used to a new environment and start making friends all over again.

im not really inspired to write about my first day of school. a special mention is due to the timetable though. no more 12.30 days, got to get used to it...haiz. well, at least my latest time is 3.15, unlike 4.05 last term. got to think positives. lol.

so anw, i shall blog about my new class at a later date, when there are more things that are blog-worthy and when i actually get to remember all their names first. lol.

today i read in the straits times that apparently there's a new teenage fad called emo. like, emotional. well, i guess i must really be behind time, maybe im not a teenager, i should just go to sleep today and wake up tomorrow in a upscale orchard road condo, and drive my BM convertible to work in my snazzy office at UOB Plaza. well, that's besides the point. well, i guess as teens, we are all subsceptible to emo-ing once in a while. i remember my biggest emo was the night before council investiture, when we were stepping down. all of the 38th smexco was quite sad, especially the com heads. i was really so emo i had trouble sleeping. then i emo-ed again when i came to the realisation that i had to leave my cca and subsequently leave ahs. then i emo-ed again when i came to rjc and realised how much i missed my old lifestyle and hated coming to a new school and a new environment. so i guess i'm pretty much into this emo fad.

well, apparently, it's actually quite a serious thing. i mean, i do emo sometimes, but there's a whole new extreme when i comes to emo-ness. there's a emo-fashion trend, which favours undersized tops, dark coloured clothes and long hair that covers the face, a la Paul Twohill. then there's an emo-rock genre, examples stated by the paper were My Chemical Romance and Fall Out Boy. but i can definitely add on to the list: Simple Plan. the ultimate emo-rockers. all these people do is whine all day. one bad thing about this emo trend is that people, especially girls, tend to cut themselves, in order to feel pain. apparently it makes them feel alive.

well, i have my moments of emo-ing, but i never actually thought of cutting myself or dressing in dark clothes and leaving my hair long such that it covers my face (not that the school will allow it anyway). i guess it can become quite serious. truth is, i have no experience with ppl emo-ing to such an extent. i guess the people i hang around with are not trend-followers themselves. but i can identify and am familiar with emo-ness, with teenage angst and why people actually feel that they need to cut themselves or listen to self-pity songs (Simple Plan *rolling eyes*)

thing is, the teenage years dont have to be angst-ridden or pitiful. i had a great time in my early teenage years. from 13-16, my secondary school days. those were fun-filled times. of course, there were the occasional blips in an otherwise clear sky, but now, looking back, i can only remember fun times in secondary school. i suppose it's a matter of mindset. many people just spiral into an endless abyss of self-pity, despair and anger at the entire world. it happens all the time, but once it overwhelms you and becomes part of your lifestyle, then it becomes dangerous and totally destroys you.

i hope it doesnt happen to me. but these past few months in RJC have caused me some of my most emo times. it's not RJ's fault, it's the MOE's fault and the entire screwed up way society think's fault. but still, i try to keep happy, keep smiling and keep alive. After all, if God is for me, who can be against me?

thought of the day: what's the big deal about clubbing? why do people like to go to a noisy, smoke and alcohol infested place full of intoxicated cuckoos? will i become like that also?