i just killed this monstrous flying ant that invaded my keyboard. i kinda feel bad about it, coz the poor little fella didn't really do anything wrong besides looking really menacing. i mean, just because something looks gross doesn't give you the right to take their life. so i'm feeling kinda guilty about killing it and dumping the carcass unceremoniously out of the window. i hope it goes to heaven and then i can apologise to it, but it'll thank me for sending it there earlier. (random thought: do cockroaches go to hell?)
it's been a mad, mad week in camp. it was a short week, with Monday and Tuesday off. but the three days we spent in camp were quite horrible, with turnouts and lots of cleaning to do. the week was made easier because there was no guard duty and i'm let off for a whole weekend (yay). also, i booked out earlier today to go for medical appointment. basically, it was a very short week in camp, but the short time spent there was filled up with lots of mindless activity, which made the week quite unbearable. i guess that's army.
i've been abandoning my psp and turning back to reading. i think it's a phase. when i first got my psp, i was just playing it non-stop. now the novelty has worn off and i'm going back to reading. i just want to get the brain juices flowing again. i've borrowed this very interesting book, What if Jesus Had Never Been Born, which examines Christianity's impact on society today, in the fields of economics, history, science, education, the arts, among others. i think it's important to have a macro view of Christianity, above and beyond my own personal belief in Jesus Christ. it's important to know how that belief can be translated into action that will be beneficial to others and, by extension, the rest of society. i shall begin on it right after i'm done with A Very Short Introduction to International Relations by Paul Wilkinson. need to get myself up to speed with what i'm potentially going to be studying. books, books, books. i love books!
been feeling quite down recently. i keep suspecting i'm suffering from depression, although that is certainly not the case. i think it's the army getting to me. most of my current woes can be distilled down to four letters: A-R-M-Y. that said, i really feel like getting away from it all. i've been fantasising about taking a trip to a resort island and just pamper myself on the beach. i just feel like going somewhere all by myself, to take a bit of 'me' time out for myself, to escape. i want to be an escapist i think. a nice week-long trip to a beautiful resort island, sipping ice-cold coke (with lemon) on a beach baking under the sun is what i really need right now. any sponsors? no movement, no activity, no worries, no schedules...just pure RELAX. gosh, it just seems so beyond my reach. *snaps back to reality*
累了，我累了。
飞吧，飞吧。
