i'm so happy that there's a long weekend coming up, i am totally looking forward to an extended break for once. army is bad in that it just takes you away from everything that really matters and distorts your priorities by playing with your time. i was just telling Terry, as we were doing sentry duty yesterday (from 7am-5pm), that i can't believe we were stuck in that sentry post when there's a whole world moving and shaking out there. it's sad that a day gets wasted just like that, when so many more things can be accomplished. but it's good that i get to hang out with my buddy, as opposed to other random strangers. thank God for friends you can spend a day with and not feel bored.
this week has been kinda rough i guess, i've not been up there spiritually. i guess it's because i haven't been consistent with my TAWG, confession is good for the soul, so they say. need to pull up my socks and not get bogged down by other things, other less important, frivoulous things, like trying to get extra sleep in the afternoon...oh laziness is my Achilles' heel.
today i went for dinner at Tim's house, it was some sort of Valentine's Day/Chinese New Year dinner kinda thing and to my pleasant surprise, Derek brought Jeremy Loo, my good friend from BMT, and i was so happy to see him again. what a delight! and we managed to catch up and he's going to be ORD-ing soon and i'm jealous but i'm just happy to be able to meet up with a BMT friend. i totally miss BMT, i know it sounds crazy yes. but i really enjoyed BMT, it was very fun, we had a fun platoon, a larger-than-life PC, and a wonderfully slack schedule that allowed for alot fo admin time for us to get to know each other better. think what i miss most about BMT is Warrant Ee's hours-long talks in the gym, about life, about people, etc. think i really learnt alot from those sessions...
i also went to watch Little Big Soldier, starring Jackie Chan and Wang Lee Hom with terry today, and i must say i really enjoyed the show. it had a very good storyline, very clever scriptwriting and splendid acting by the lead actors who showed rare chemistry. it was funny without being Jackie Chan-slapstick coupled with breathtaking Chinese scenery. it was definitely a great show, would strongly recommend it. after that i went shopping, and bought a parka sweat from Uniqlo and a pair of pants from Giordarno (i'm a very thrifty shopper). i nearly bought another shirt from Springfield but pulled out at the last minute because i thought i was just buying stuff impulsively and unnecessarily. what i really need are a good pair of shoes and a nice, durable bag, oh and maybe an iPhone (ok, i want it, not need it)
leelaoshi sent this Zaobao article through email and i read it, it was really heartfelt and i could totally identify with the author. think it's sad that the good ol' days are gone, but i guess i'll trust God for better ones ahead:
丹女
山外山
因为T来香港公干，所以我们有机会在家里聚会。大家谈起故人往事，那真是一个愉快的晚上。虽然T和E二十年不见，但一见面就像是昨天还在一起玩闹，搞课外活动的朋友那样，无所不谈。
其实我们不过是十七八岁念同一所初级学院，一块儿度过年少时期两载岁月的朋友，和后来许许多多共同念大学或工作的朋友比较起来，我们朝夕相对的时间实际上很短。但是就像T说的：“那个时候真是好玩，太好玩了！”就因为那个时候“太好玩”才有幸让收藏了二十年的友情，在二十年后，还像用了最好的葡萄，最纯净的泉水，在最合适的季节酿造的葡萄酒那样，依旧香醇迷人。
太好玩！我们当时玩得不知天高地厚，玩得将功课抛在一旁，玩得老师们摇头叹息。我们玩得理直气壮，考了烂成绩还不当回事地继续风花雪月。结果，到了A水准会考，我们当中一些该拿4个A的仅拿了两三个，该有机会出国深造的只得留在新加坡。当然，这些T和E都追回来了，不仅追了回来，还能大言不惭地说：幸亏当年没拿奖学金。在金融界做得有声有色的E不到四十，已经在考虑退休……
不管追不追得回来，人生没有几个两年可以让你这样子度过。年纪大了离开学校以后更是不可能。当年我们在一起的时候，是用了最善良最纯真的心灵相处。那是 我们最美好的一面，还没有被社会被成人的世界污染的最美好的一面。我们在学校、老师们家长们的保护下，做既不是大人又不是孩子，既是大人又是孩子，才能够 享受的集体生活。我们拥抱在一起激动，一起大笑，一起流泪，一起高歌……这样的日子任凭后来生活将我们带到何处，都不可能忘记。它永远在心里保留着最动人的一部分。
之后我们各奔东西。在社会里该争的争了，该爬的爬了，该拍马屁的拍了，该虚假的虚假了，该面目狰狞的面目狰狞了。但是你们后来的这些面孔，我都看不到。我们有幸不曾成为同事或竞争对手的，都看不到。这样子最好。这样子，当我们聚会时，我们又都恢复了十七八岁的样子。“你们都没有变哩！”T和E这样说。其实怎么可能没有变呢？只是在我们之间，我们又可以打开那最美好的一面罢了。尽管没有过去纯洁善良，但却已经是我们最美丽的了。
那最美的一面，因为你们而存在。因为当年玩疯了，所以没有忘记。还好我们玩得不知天高地厚，玩得将功课抛在一旁，玩得老师们摇头叹息……还好我们玩得理直气壮，考了烂成绩还不当回事地继续风花雪月……还好有你们，才让生命灿烂起来……
（传自香港）
笔心
那最美的一面，因为你们而存在。因为当年玩疯了，所以没有忘记。 ——丹女
